So it’s back to monitoring calories for a while. I don’t enjoy having to tabulate while I eat lunch, but if it works it is worth it. I’m also going to try the My Fitness Pal app again and see if I can stick to it more stringently, at least until I get a good grasp of how many calories I tend to take in.
I am going to start incorporating some walking into the mix as well. I admittedly have been avoiding the exercise aspect of overall health because of physical issues. I recently found out that I have some arthritis and muscle spasms in my back. It’s a catch-22 because if I don’t exercise it will get worse but when I do exercise it hurts more. I have used that as a reason to not do it but now I need to just push through and do it anyway. I am supposed to start seeing a physical therapist next week - hopefully that will help out as well.
Although the scale doesn’t reflect a lot of positive growth (or shrinkage to be more accurate), I still feel pretty good about things. I still believe that I will eventually lose the weight I need to…I don’t struggle with that as much as I used to. Now it’s just a matter of patience. I want it to all be gone NOW. But I have been slowly accepting that it didn’t come overnight and it’s not going to leave overnight. As long as I am moving in a healthier, more self-controlled direction, I am good.
I have also been reading a book called Made To Crave by Lysa TerKeurst which has been very helpful. I would definitely recommend it - especially if you are in a place where you can see your struggle with your weight as a spiritual battle. I am about half way through and there have been several Aha Moments in it already.
It’s a little discouraging to see that it’s been almost a year and technically I am up. I have to try and focus on the positives and pray that at this time next year I am singing a more successful tune. Thanks for following along with me so far.