Uh huh. It’s sarcasm. If you know me personally I am sure you probably caught on when I said “supercharged.” Honestly, if I am going by how I FEEL, I think I am just a few baby steps ahead of where I was the day I found out that my months of hard work netted a GAIN of a pound. Keeping it real, I am still pretty disheartened and doubtful about the likelihood of me beating this thing.
I know the right words to tell myself:
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
It is NOT within my own abilities to tear down this stronghold of mine. I need to rely on something bigger than myself to help me.
If I just follow the right plan for eating and exercising, eventually the weight WILL come off.
To those ideas, I respond with one of my favorite passages in the Bible, “I believe. Help my unbelief.” I do believe…but I need to believe more. Despite my doubts, I still have faith that God hears my cries for help. And it is that faith that is compelling me to just plow forward and start to do what I know is right, trusting the God will help me along.
So today I don’t feel enthused. I don’t feel confident. I don’t feel like I am going to actually be able to do this on my own. But “the heart is deceptive above all things and beyond cure, who can know it?” Today I didn’t’ eat fast food. Today I threw away a lot of unhealthy things that were in my fridge and replaced them with lots of fruits and vegetables. I kept my calories where they should be and made sure that they were healthy calories, not empty ones. I was given a cookie and I didn’t eat it. I drank more water and less pop, and I prayed and asked God to help me to have wisdom and self control with regards to my food.
I realized that if I wait on my feelings to propel me into action, I will be waiting a very, very long time. So maybe this realization is just one more piece of the puzzle that needed to be fit in in order for me to have long term success.
One day down - a lifetime of healthy changes to go.