This morning at 6:45 when I woke him up for school, the first thing he did was ask for pizza for breakfast. When I excitedly reminded him of our pact we had made with each other, he cried. They weren’t bratty, I want my way tears, they were tears of genuine sadness that he tried to wipe away before I saw them. Even as he went and got something else for breakfast, he still seemed to almost mourning the fact that he wasn’t eating pizza (which he never did even when we weren’t eating healthy).
This makes me feel sad, frustrated, and guilty all at once. I don’t want him to have issues with food, I get annoyed with his constant asking about what snack or meal is next, and I feel bad because I know that this is nurture instead of nature. As they say, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.
I will begin praying for the wisdom and knowledge necessary to help my children avoid the same pitfalls that I have fallen into. I will research some creative alternatives to junk food that are affordable and taste good. I’ll try to make it all positive and fun for him rather than making it seem like punishment or something.
Maybe helping him with these things will help me as well.