I finally decided that now is as good of a time as any. Carpe Diem. That’s always been my motto. (Not really. I actually don’t think that I have ever said that with a straight face and meant it. But I did REALLY like the movie The Dead Poet’s Society.) I guess I am just done waiting for some great big inspiration to fall on me. I need to just start writing something. Anything.
I was having a hard time writing because I felt stuck. I felt like I had this major life change when I had gastric bypass and there should have been so much to share and say as things in my life were so dramatically altered. But the reality is that things aren’t THAT much different. Sure, there are some wonderful things going on. Renewed energy levels, shrinking clothes sizes, overall improvements in my health. And yes, I know that all of those things are major victories and hopefully there will be more and more of those on the horizon.
As far as my strengths and struggles go – still the same. Things that make me happy and things that tick me off – still the same. Things I have a hard time letting go of – still the same. So whenever I sat down to write, I felt this pressure to say something profound about my weight loss experience and it just never came because a lot of it had already been said. So then I’d want to write about something funny that happened to me that day or about some profound spiritual thought I’d heard but when I’d sit to write it, I felt like I needed to somehow tie it back to my weight loss, because that’s what this blog started off as after all – a weight loss blog.
So I have decided that I’m just going to write about whatever I want to. It may be about weight loss. It may be about Jesus. It may be about how my four year old will only flush toilets with his elbow or his foot because he thinks that then he doesn’t have to wash his hands. I might even get fancy and throw in a guest writer or a contest here and there. (I know. Try not to get too excited). But whatever I write about, my goal is to just be open and keep it real. I think that’s a goal I can stick to.